That morbid feeling

I wanted (for the longest time) to blog about my recent year-end trip although I've already posted them photos on FB I thought it wouldn't hurt to give a proper account of the trip here BUT I've been feeling pretty morbid lately not because of FYP or anything like that BUT because of numerous disturbing news about environmental phenomenons that has led many to believe that the end of the world is near.

Some say is 2012. Some say is after that. Some say is soon. What say you?

I don't know about you but the thought of the world coming to an end at ANY GIVEN TIME just bothers me. I now have thoughts about whether it is even alright to plan for a proper future or should we all just stop thinking about the future (Eg: Life after graduation, marriage, careers etc) and just..wait.

Heck, I feel like I am one of those homeless people on the street yelling and yelling that the END OF THE WORLD IS NEAR.

To be honest, some part of me feels robbed as well. Say if the world is to end like really soon, then will I ever, ever get to experience the things I've always thought of experiencing in the future? Like traveling? Working life and all that jazz? No right?

Sigh. This leads me to think that everything you've worked for in this life is after all pointless because the end is near. Why even bother working hard? Let's just sit and wait.

Waiting is also just plain scary. What are we waiting for? Why are we waiting? What will happen? What am I going to do? It's all so confusing. Everything seems so pointless now.

A coursemate commented "Live every day as though it is your last". How can you make every day meaningful anyway when you are bound to face something challenging one day which might make that day not very meaningful anymore?

Is this confusing? I'm very confused.

Sigh.