Hanging around

Ai Ling and I are currently hanging around in Central, waiting for our 5.50 pm train back to Kampar. The journey here was alright but kind of tiring as we had tons of things to lug back. When I mean tons I seriously mean it. This time, all our luggages altogether amounted to 37++ kg. And MAS has a luggage of 40 kg. Super women we are.

I am currently addicted to this X-Japan song IV which is a song from the Saw movies. Can't remember which one though. They've always been a little scary for my taste but this song is just very good. In a weird way. Maybe I'm just weird is all.

Left Miri with a not-so-good mood, not because I dread coming back but because I am led to believe that I am but a useless human being, who has done nothing, and I mean NOTHING good at all in this life.

Being human is just difficult. When you try to do your best, there will always be a person who says that you haven't done anything good. At all.

It sucks, you know. Getting accused of things that are untrue. And yet, you can do nothing to defend yourself because you know, it will all be in vain.

Sometimes when shizz happens, you're just glad holidays are all over and you're going back to a place where you'll feel useful at least.





Needles are piercing through my skin
I'll tell you the feeling what it's like
Is life just all about deception?

Please don't be a part of a fairy tale,
but you're so young to play with thy own will
Should I trade the breath of my life for freedom?

(In the rain) I'm calling you, dear
(To find the way) Can't you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life's bleeding from fear
(To find its way) I will give it straight from my vein

Needles are piercing through my skin
I don't fear the fucking life

This never meant I can't sit by
They say as if it takes me somewhere
Just let me swallow the faith by injection
Life better be rushing to my head, my love

I've played with this game before to find a piece of my true self!
I'm lost within!

(In the rain) I'm calling you, dear
(To find the way) Can't you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life's bleeding from fear
(To find its way) I will give it straight from my vein

I'm feeling my pain
Do you feel where it's been
Can you strip with the history of the world,
when it's sad part of life?
Cannot set the shadows fade,
forever fades away

I'm calling you, dear.
Can't you see me standing right here?
Life's bleeding from fear.
I'll give it straight from my vein.

(In the rain) I'm calling you, dear
(To find the way) Can't you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life's bleeding from fear
(To find its way) I will give it straight from my vein

I never knew I.V was in English. I always thought it was in Japanese =.=

The lyrics are a bit weird and erm...vulgar. I just realised!! Sorry. =/

X Japan are a really old rock band group in case you're wondering. This song is one of their latest after they disbanded and regrouped.

Till then.