Dear world

So the preparations have begun.

Went to the bank during lunch break with mom to open the SSPN account and things got a bit messy there since the form was confusing. Thank goodness the manager there who is a friend of mom's came out and explained the lot to us. However, her peon, the bank teller who is not only pregnant but RUDE was well, very RUDE. Fiddling with her lousy handphone and ignoring questions, what sort of attitude is this? She ought to be ashamed, donning on the 'Service with a Smile' badge thing. Just because you are pregnant does not mean that you can be lazy too lar, oi!

Anyway, the SSPN account results will only be out in a month's time so I pray and hope for the best.

The application form has also been printed out and filled. Now to certify the certs and I am on my way. However, I seem to have a wee bit of a problem. The university has given applicants 5 choices into landing which course he/she wants. I only want to do one course; English Language. Somehow, I feel unsafe in applying for that course only since they might not accept me. So how???? Should I put choices in the other courses I am not interested in? But I want to do English. How How how????

Sobs.

I know I should pray and have faith (as to what Joanne said since she has experienced this feeling before) but sometimes I admit I can be so human and not let myself fall into His hands and know that I am safe there. Tell me, why is this so?

I guess I am to be comforted that if it is His will, He will make a way.

This reminds me of a situation last year when I was sitting for my MUET paper. I was confused over what course to do in uni then since I was sort of interested in a couple of courses which of course included English. I remembered praying to God back then that if it was His will for me to do English, then if I got a band 6 for MUET, that is the course I will want to do. Lo and behold, a Band 6 I got and eversince then, I knew there was no turning back. Although I got a bit distracted and stumbled..anyway, that's besides the point.

However, although I am comforted at this, I still worry about REJECTION. Is it really safe to put one choice only and risk the chance of not getting in?

Sigh.

This is not getting anywhere.

Till then.

'...and I will fall at Your feet, I will fall at Your feet, and I will worship You.....freely You gave Your love for us, surrendered Your life upon that cross, great is the love, poured out for all, this is our God...'

-'This is Our God', Hillsong Live.