P for Passion

I just felt like making that the title today for some reason. Haha.

I have a confession!

I've been slacking on studying for the past few days =(

It's not supposed to happen!! It's NOT!!

The thing is, I actually feel quite..relaxed now for some reason. It's not supposed to happen!! It's NOT!!

See, during exam periods, it is the norm to start sprouting pimples, be emo and stressed and STUDY like 24/7.

I have sprouted pimples (not due to stress, mind you, but due to this blasted weather and the consumption of heaty food =/) and my sleep pattern has totally gone off the hook (Sleeping at 4 am for the past couple of days and waking up at noon =.=) but I don't really feel stressed.

Okay, I DID feel quite stressed..back in like 1950s which is equivalent to last week but after that, I've been feeling quite good.

Now, this isn't good. At all. Why? Why?? Now, the thing I am worried about is this cycle which pretty much goes like this; Huixin feels good about effing finals----> Does revision accordingly in an unstressed manner----> Sits for finals, also in a relaxed fashion-----> Not to great results, boo hoo.

When I mean by not too great results, I mean results according to the standard I have set for myself. Living in a society like this, it does seem like results precede over everything else. Trying to compete with others to get the best results used to be something I would do but it gets so exhausting and in the end, all I had was low self esteem. Hence, after deciding to race against myself, things got much better. And there was less pressure. End of digression.

Back in those secondary school and form 6 days, it was normal to have NOT enough time to study. Now, it seems that time is aplenty.

I wonder if time is fooling me.

Off to do grammar research. Yerh.

Till then.